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•February 5, 2010 • Leave a Commentin brittle glass
•December 2, 2009 • 2 Commentsi went home for thanksgiving, and i took my girlfriend with me. the trip made me appreciate my family so much. it made me realize that there are things i’ve been missing out on ever since i left. when i left home after the summer, there were things i stopped thinking about. it was good to think of those things again.
my family is a whole lot of fun to be around. i miss spending holidays with them. my dogs are the best. my grandfather is incredible, and i had such an enjoyable time with him while i was home.
i’m excited for christmas. lately i’ve been terrified of letting it slip by without my full embracement of it. with school it’s hard to feel the “spirit” of it. but i’ve determined in my mind that this christmas will feel like christmas. i’m pretty sure this means that i’ll be spending far too much time at malls, bookstores, and the third street promenade. but nothing sounds better. so here’s to squeezing everything possible out of this season
and here’s this that has nothing to do with any of that.
i was wrapped in innocence; i was wrapped in brittle glass. i was broken by the winds that blew; they blew from the broken past. i found my home in consequence; i found my home in grief. i was found at peace with the graves; i was found with my belief. i heard the sounds of penitance; i heard the sounds of break. i was heard among the hills i walked; i walked to feel awake. i passed glances with the golden fields; i passed glances with release. i was passed until i saw my hands; i saw them in the breeze.continuing on
•November 19, 2009 • 1 Commenti’m sitting here wishing i had something to write about. i almost don’t want to come on here anymore because of my upsettingly infrequent posts. i don’t really know what my deal is, but hopefully i’ll bounce back.
i know that my parents would like me to write a lot more on here, and my girlfriend too. so this one goes out to them.
the good news is that i’ve been reading a new book, and i’ve decided to start a new writing project.
it’s not that i won’t still write on here (i will). and it’s not that i don’t want to have writing for people to read (i do).
so this is my attempt to keep myself going. i’m running with the idea that this is enough.
i asked for the sun
•October 15, 2009 • 2 Commentsit’s been extremely difficult for me to write lately. there’s just been too much going on. i’ve realized i need to do it for myself though. so hopefully this will get me going again.
i spent two-hundred days at the bottom of the sea, and the gods of the depths never came for me. but the God of the sky never knew my deeds, and the God in my heart always knew my needs.i felt for the sand that sat beneath my head, and the rocks that i grabbed were my jagged bed. but the current passed by like the blowing breeze, and it blew through the corral and it blew through the seas.
i sunk with the water through the frozen ground, and i laid in a grave where i heard no sound. but the waves brought a weight that i couldn’t bear, and it pressed on my heart and it tore at my hair.
i asked for the sun every single day, and i begged for its heat in the bitter clay. but the words that i spoke fell into my throat, and i never could believe they would never float.
in seas, in dying seas we fall to never rise again. the light will find the darkness when, in darkness, we descend.
if we keep our eyes closed
•September 12, 2009 • Leave a Commentgood God
•August 31, 2009 • Leave a Commentit’s good to hear words that were meant for you. it gets you to thinking that you’re not that far from where you need to be.
today i moved a step closer to wrapping my mind around the concept that the God of this world is so much bigger than the God of my notions.
…and i realized yet again that i don’t give him enough credit. i’m coming to grips with the fact that i never will.
blank sheets
•August 26, 2009 • 2 Comments…jeez. i’ve got nothing these days.